This week's checklist.

Make a blog when not sleepy [/]
Go on a shopping spree [/]
Go to my bf's campus [ ]
Do a VTR in a modeling agency [ ]
Adjust my sleeping time to normal [ ]

Make a blog when not sleepy
- idk if this will actually help me on the 5th thing on my checklist, but oh well, better than nothing.
Go on a shopping spree
- I already did yesterday, i will again tomorrow. ;)
Go to my bf's campus
- We'll go there later, oh i hope i could sleep already so i would not look like shit later.
Do a VTR in a modeling agency
- This is what really keeps me pressured these days, to stay healthy looking when I'm really not (Sad, i know) an agency just told me to go to their office for a VTR session, I'm now on my period and waiting for it to finish so i would not look haggard on screen. Also trying to keep my face acne free, i hope they'll like me. I'll update whatever what happens. :/
Adjust my sleeping time to normal
I think this is the hardest thing I'm about to do.

GTG. need to take a shower after wrestling with my dogs. *kisses!*

F-in dream made me miss you like hell.

I have this ex bf, let us call him ALEX. I had many ex boyfriends but he was my first love (Cheesy, yes i know) he was the sweetest dude when i first met and dated him, but time passed and there have been issues, and problems.. Now he's a certified ASSHOLE. then came more guys and now, my present bf, second love (is there such a thing?) anyway, yesterday, or should i say, "Earlier" i slept at about 10am in the morning, credits for insomnia. I had about 3 dreams that i can slightly remember. First, an outrageously weird dream about my elementary school being attacked by an army of samurai maniacs which were UNBELIEVABLY (emphasize on that) fought by those innocent looking kids, the escape plan was, after Kung-fu fighting with the lunatics, we were to jump from the 3rd floor fire escape and land on the huge, beautiful pool beside the school. When the lunatics were getting at a smaller number, I ran to the fire escape, took my expensive flops and shorts off and leaped in the air with brown panties on. (I totally didn't know why I did that but it felt good) a boy came to help me get out of the pool where i just realized that i couldn't leave the pool and go home half naked so i borrowed a huge shirt from him that covered my legs and landed on my knees. Second, my girlfriends and i were malling, i got lost and stuck in the wrong crowd (this actually pissed me off) Third, i was in a church with my best friend, a mass was going on. Then ALEX (as I've mentioned before) came behind my back and whispered in my ear, can't remember what the hell he said. We started chatting, and he was like when i first met him, sweet and gentle. He showed me high school pictures of him and his friends which i all met because we were dating that time, and he held my hand so firmly.. It seemed so real, it was his touch, his breath, his warmth, his everything! I twitched, opened my eyes, OMG! Its already 7 in the evening! And i spent hours looking at his photo, wondering how he is..

Angel Vs Demon ;))

5:00am
Couldn't sleep because..
1. Gotta huge wound in my mouth, and every time it bumps into something.. ARGG!! Damn it, i wanna kill someone.
2. I'm all out of cigarettes, all the stores here open at atleast 6am.
3. Trying to figure out when was the last time i last had my period.
4. I just saw a picture of Jake's (My BF) ex girlfriend online, and man.. oh man..

She was F-in beautiful! I am pretty too, i know that, but HER.. She was drop dead gorgeous, breath taking, stunning, out of this world, she's.. she's.. I could not even put it into words! She has this fair complexion, deep, dark brown eyes, a crooked smile, cheek bones that blushes every time she smiles, and that long straight hair that seems to follow her every motion. She looks so innocent.. while I look so.. fierce and vicious (that seems to be the right word, i think LOL) She looks like an angel here on earth. Hmm... Well, if she's an angel here on earth, then I'll be the demon to send her BACK TO HEAVEN. if you know what i mean.. >;) *Evil laugh* Then when she gets there, all of the heavens will darken as I send the fire of a thousand burning suns flying through the sky to burn her pretty little wings. Poor girl. *Evil laugh* wew, man I'm good. ;) gotta go buy some cigarettes. *Kisses!*